Thursday, July 24, 2014
Day 13 of 100 Days of Good Karma.
Today I went dress shopping. Justin and I are having family photos taken on Saturday. We haven’t had pictures taken as a family for a few years and now seems like as good a time as any.
A friend of mine went with me. Between her two kids and my two kids we were quite the circus at the store.
It’s been a long time since I had issues with my body. After having my second child I accepted that I will never be a size 2, and I’m okay with that.
My body has done amazing things. It’s produced my two favorite people in the world, gotten me through 5k’s, 10k’s, one half marathon and most of a training program for a full marathon before I abused it to much and injured myself before the race.
I eat (pretty) well and exercise on a regular basis. I hate strength training, but I do it because it keeps me active and injury free. I’m no Olympian, but I’m athletic enough that I can run and play outside with my kids and feel comfortable in my clothes.
It’s true nothing has physically changed for me yet, but walking through the store I felt like I had a giant red ‘C’ hanging over my head. I have no idea what my body will look like in six months and suddenly clothes shopping produced an anxiety I’ve never experienced before.
I rejected every dress my friend picked out because they were all form fitting or showed cleavage. Dresses that I wouldn’t have batted an eyelash at two weeks ago now made me want to cry and throw up and scream all at the same time.
After each rejection, Wendy gently pulled me of the ceiling and offered something new.
We discovered I was okay with short skirts as long as it had a high neckline. Wendy found a short boat neck dress that showed off my legs and found a stunning pair of shoes to go with it. Wendy declared it my ‘date night outfit from now on’ and I’m actually excited to wear it on Saturday.
Today’s silver lining: Friends who pull you off the ceiling. They are good people to keep around.
What’s your silver lining today? I love comments!