Thursday, July 31, 2014
Day 20 of 100 Days of Good Karma.
(Where to begin?)
Today was a good day.
(Not strong enough.)
Today was a great day.
(Still not right.)
*drums fingers on keyboard*
(Wait. I know. This.)
Today’s silver lining: Today I learned to hope again.
Have you ever surprised yourself by taking a breath without even realizing you were holding it?
Today, I felt like I took my first breath in twenty days.
I have been wrestling with so many unknowns, but we had the biggest of those unknowns answered today: The PET scan results showed the cancer has not spread.
It is not in my brain.
It is not in my bones.
It is not in my lungs or my heart or my liver.
It is not Stage Four.
It is Stage Three and so still curable.
Read that again. Read it slow.
It puts a big, fat smile on your face, doesn’t it?
It does for me.
Cancer is still scary and I know there is a fight ahead, but at least now there is a plan to deal with it.
I don’t remember how long the doctor said radiation would last. Up until that point in the conversation I could barely plan ahead for dinner, let alone think six months from now. I think she said it was twelve weeks, but I’d be lying if I said I was certain.
The type and extent of surgery has not been determined yet. My doctors need to see how the cancer responds to chemotherapy first. Also there is the results of the genetic test still pending.
(By the way, Christy, you don’t have to wear Isaac’s hat to work. Your counterparts at MD Anderson were very informative and I definitely learned a more than one new thing about genetics today.)
But I have six months to figure the surgery piece out.
I know there is still a long road ahead, and the hard moments are not over.
Today we celebrate.
What’s your silver lining today? I love comments!