• Another 100 Days of Good Karma: Day 113 (Better Living Through Chemistry)

     

     

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    Dear Keith Richards, I get it now. Better living through chemistry. Thank you, Meghan

    Saturday, November 1, 2014

    Run/ Walk/ Bike/ Elliptical (Today:  0.00 miles;  Running Total: 25.36 miles)

    Day 113 of *Another* 100 Days of Good Karma.

    The real effects of chemotherapy take a day or two to kick in and today I was the definition of lethargy.

    The nausea was kept at bay with the help of anti-nausea medication and copious amounts of ginger tea.

    The Neulasta injection that helps rebuild my immune system makes the muscles in my back and shoulders ache.

    I wasn’t super hungry.  I ate, but I didn’t want much more than crackers and cold fruit.

    When the kids wanted to go outside I sat in a lawn chair, read a book and enjoyed the sunshine while they played on the swings and rolled in the grass with the dog.

    I binge watched more of Downton Abbey (holy crap I can’t leave that show alone.  Who knew a PBS show would be so amazing?!).

    It feels like I’m getting over a stomach flu.  I imagine if I wasn’t taking the anti-nausea medication it would feel like I was in the middle of a stomach flu.

    Today’s silver lining:  Emotionally (God I hate that word — it’s just so squishy) I was great.

    I allowed myself to rest.  I didn’t cry over nothing.  The kids didn’t give me those sideways mommy’s-gone-crazy-again looks.

    I’m like a Rolling Stones album, only I’ve switched tracks from Nineteenth Nervous Breakdown to Mother’s Little Helper.

    What’s your silver lining today?  I love comments!

    Don’t want to leave a comment, but have something you want to share?  Send me an email at gettingthewordswrong(at)gmail(dot)com.

    xoxo,
    Meghan

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6 Responsesso far.

  1. Tina says:

    Anti-depression med are the greatest. The best thing for situations you can’t get away from and therefore can climb out of the emotional mess. Glad to see you taking care of yourself. I love you, Meg.

    Also Downton is the bomb–my life is more full with that show in my life. Hey, did you catch Outlander, too? Also obsessed.

  2. Cindy Smith says:

    There is absolutely nothing wrong with “mommy’s little helper”. So here’s my admission. I never thought I would ever need anything to help me function, but I guess after a lifetime of high stress levels my brain and my body cried uncle. So I am now on anxiety meds after a fairly serious breakdown while studying one Sunday about 2 years ago. I was struggling so much with my class and after doing so well since I went back, I just couldn’t deal with failing it and finally had to let go of the pressure I was putting on myself to make a B in a class I was clearly going to fail. Thankfully, I came to my senses and withdrew before letting that happen. And this was on top of so many other things going at the same time. It was just too much to handle. So there. I said it. I don’t know why we put such a stigma on this.

    I understand how difficult it was for you to make that initial call, but it was a necessary step. You have much bigger things to deal with and if this helps with finding some clarity and giving you the ability to enjoy the day with your kiddos, then do it. I sincerely hope this round of chemo isn’t too hard on your body.

  3. Monica says:

    We binge watched Downton Abbey too and loved it! Who knew a PBS, British royalty soap opera could be so good! Can’t wait for the next season to start!

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