Sunday, January 25, 2015
Run/ Walk/ Bike/ Elliptical (Today: 0.00 miles; Running Total: 158.76 miles)
Day 198 of *Another* 100 Days of Good Karma.
I spent the day getting ready for houseguests for the next three weeks. Which means a lot of cleaning.
I’m amazed at the number of toys my children have. I bet I could box up and get rid of half and they wouldn’t even notice.
I spent the day focusing on cleaning and trying to ignore the fact that surgery is around the corner. I can only focus so far into the future.
Like today, cleaning. And tomorrow, picking Tina up from the airport. And Tuesday just spending time with her.
Whenever my mind skips ahead to making the phone call Tuesday night to find out what time surgery will be on Wednesday or thinking of stepping out of the car and walking up to the hospital or the moments before I’m put to sleep I freak the fuck out.
I’m try to be grateful that surgery is even an option. There are plenty of cancer patients who don’t have this choice. But gratitude is hard.
So, so hard.
So I cleaned today. A lot.
Today’s silver lining: For once I’m glad my kids have so many toys. It gave me something to do all day.
What’s your silver lining today? I love comments!
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