• Another 100 Days of Good Karma: Day 198 (Stress Cleaning)

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    Sunday, January 25, 2015

    Run/ Walk/ Bike/ Elliptical (Today:  0.00 miles;  Running Total: 158.76 miles)

    Day 198 of *Another* 100 Days of Good Karma.

    I spent the day getting ready for houseguests for the next three weeks. Which means a lot of cleaning.

    I’m amazed at the number of toys my children have. I bet I could box up and get rid of half and they wouldn’t even notice.

    I spent the day focusing on cleaning and trying to ignore the fact that surgery is around the corner.  I can only focus so far into the future.

    Like today, cleaning.  And tomorrow, picking Tina up from the airport.  And Tuesday just spending time with her.

    Whenever my mind skips ahead to  making the phone call Tuesday night to find out what time surgery will be on Wednesday or thinking of stepping out of the car and walking up to the hospital or the moments before I’m put to sleep I freak the fuck out.

    I’m try to be grateful that surgery is even an option.  There are plenty of cancer patients who don’t have this choice. But gratitude is hard.

    So, so hard.

    So I cleaned today.  A lot.

    Today’s silver lining:  For once I’m glad my kids have so many toys.  It gave me something to do all day.

    What’s your silver lining today?  I love comments!

    Don’t want to leave a comment, but have something you want to share?  Send me an email at gettingthewordswrong(at)gmail(dot)com.

    xoxo,
    Meghan

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6 Responsesso far.

  1. Chrystal T says:

    I need to set aside time to go through the boys toys. They have gotten out of hand too!
    I’m thinking of you girl! Today & always! Sending lots of prayers your way!

  2. Leah Senona says:

    Thinking of you! Sending you lots of love and peaceful, powerful thoughts.

  3. marriannad says:

    So praying for you. I wish I could help but I know your friends/relatives will be a great help and comfort to you and your family this week and for the next 3 weeks. Blessings, dear Meghan.

  4. acp8020 says:

    thinking about you friend…

  5. Cindy Smith says:

    Been thinking about you and praying for you! I understand how you feel. It was like that before my first hip surgery. Difficult to accept that they were about to take out part of my bones. I will be with you thru your recovery in spirit and will keep you in my prayers! (And would believe I still have toys from when I was little and from when Heather was little!)

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