Thursday, April 30, 2015
Run/ Walk/ Bike/ Elliptical (Today: 2.00 miles; Running Total: 265.21 miles)
Day 293 of *Another* 100 Days of Good Karma.
It’s been fifteen days since radiation ended and life has settled down into a new rhythm.
I can’t help but notice that the world looks different now.
I feel like I’m merging back onto a busy freeway after a very long and bumpy detour. The other traffic doesn’t notice what my poor little battered car has been through. They’re focused on their own driving.
I see little things that make people act small and ugly to each other. You only have to turn on the news to find it.
I see these things and I want to scream, “Don’t you know what I’ve been through? Don’t you see you could be next? Don’t you see this is a waste of your time?”
I want this crazy, scary experience to somehow eliminate the ugliness in the world. But the world is still the world, and people are still human. Mistakes are made. People get hurt.
I’m the one who’s changed.
I can’t un-see the things I’ve seen and I can’t change back, even if I wanted to.
I wish I could share what the world looks like now. How fragile and beautiful it all is. How little time we have to waste being ugly to ourselves and to each other.
I use a few guiding rules to stay grounded.
Rules for Life
I’m as guilty as anyone of violating these rules in the past, and I’m sure I’ll make mistakes in the future. But my aim is to be a better version of me. A version I can be proud of.
And I choose to start here.
Today’s silver lining: I have new challenges coming up. And I am so excited to start them.
What’s your silver lining today? I love comments!
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