• A Brief Hiatus

    SamAndFrodo

    To all of my Sams: Thank you.

    My final reconstructive surgery is right around the corner. I’m in that two week window where I can’t take Ibuprofen or vitamins or even drink herbal teas because it might interfere with other drugs or cause bleeding problems during surgery.

    My oncologist and my surgeon also said ‘no Tamoxifen’ for two weeks prior to surgery because, in addition to blocking estrogen and helping prevent new cancer cells from growing (yay!), Tamoxifen can cause blood clots (boo).

    I don’t like not taking the Tamoxifen. It’s like I’ve been stripped of my shield during a Lord of the Rings style battle. It’s nerve wracking, to say the least. It makes me especially sympathetic to those who go through cancer treatment and don’t have the option of taking medication afterwards.

    This surgery has a different feel than the mastectomy. I can’t say I’m excited about surgery or recovery, but there is a certain measure of relief accompanying this surgery. I feel like I’m closing a chapter. I was diagnosed with breast cancer in July 2014. The final reconstructive surgery will take place March 2, 2016.

    After a year and a half I am so very ready to close this chapter.

    The long process of cancer treatment has made several things very clear:

    1. We have now. Right now. Do what you dream of doing. Don’t put it off. Don’t say ‘someday’. Even if you fail, this is our one chance. Don’t waste it.
    2. The people I love are my highest priority. Jobs come and go. Living arrangements change. Health fluctuates (as I know all too well). The people I love have carried me through some of the hardest moments in my life. From the bottom of my heart, thank you to everyone who has played the part of Sam on my Frodo-like journey.
    3. I am stronger than I ever knew. I’ve known fear and uncertainty and I am frequently about to lose my shit. But somewhere within me is the drive to keep going. We are all stronger than we know.

    I’m putting the blog on a brief hiatus while I deal with surgery and recovery. I anticipate being back to blogging regularly by March 12th.

    In the meantime, in case you really miss me, I posted several stories on WattPad. If you aren’t familiar with WattPad, it’s a free website where you can read some pretty great stories. All you need is an email address. Here’s how Wikipedia describes WattPad.

    WattPadThe stories I posted are short fiction. I’ve pimped these around to every professional short story market I could find. No one picked them up and I hate the thought of them mildewing in a folder on my laptop so I made them available to be read. If you’d like to read them, the links are here:

    Feel free to send comments or feedback to gettingthewordswrong@gmail.com. If you like the stories, awesome! If you don’t. . . well, that’s okay, too. . . just try not to be an asshat about it, ‘kay?

    I’ll see you all in March!

    Xoxo,

    Meghan

4 Responsesso far.

  1. Annette says:

    Love you! Xoxi

  2. susan says:

    Yes, this chapter will soon be over – thank you. You have been through more than most in a life time. Wishing you well on your upcoming surgery and a quick recovery too.

  3. Nora Napier says:

    Meghan, you are truly an inspiration. I send blessings for a speedy recovery and kick-ass end to this chapter. You go, girl!

  4. Pat S. says:

    I will miss your witty banter and soul-searching bs. All I know is that when the time comes, I want you in my foxhole!! I would say good luck, but luck has nothing to do with it………God speed……….

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