Saturday, August 9, 2014
Day 29 of 100 Days of Good Karma.
Running is my constant analogy to life.
I consider myself a runner even though I’m not elite. I’m not even fast. I’ve never won a race, though I have beaten my own time.
I consider myself a runner because it is my favorite form of meditation.
It gives me a short term goal to focus on: Complete this mile, this thirty minutes, this day of training.
It is my time to think.
Sometimes it is my time to not think.
If I have a problem that needs solving, I approach it as if it were a running problem.
Problem: Feeling burnt out? Sore and exhausted?
Solution: Take a rest day. Come back to it tomorrow.
Problem: Don’t feel like running, but it isn’t exhaustion. Just pure laziness.
Solution: Take it in small steps.
Problem: You’re coming back from a hiatus and find that you don’t have the physical capacity you once had.
Solution: This can be the hardest one to solve, but don’t worry. Just start over.
When it comes to running, I’ve done my fair share of starting over.
It can be frustrating to start over. It can feel like a setback.
Starting over requires the courage to see what is, rather than what you think should be.
And, using my running analogy again, starting over is part of life.
I started over again on Thursday.
I didn’t see it for what it was at the time.
I was too mired down in the wake of starting chemotherapy and I couldn’t cheer myself for being physically active even though I felt like I’d been hit and dragged by the cancer train.
All I could see was my inability to run for even a minute.
Today I realized it was just another beginning.
Another opportunity to start over.
Today’s silver lining: I did 2.25 miles in 34 minutes.
I ran 2 minutes, walked 2 minutes, repeat, repeat, repeat — a running interval I haven’t had to use for years.
It was really damn hard.
But I finished. I was so happy I cried a little. And, bonus, I ran faster and went further than Thursday.
Once again, running has taught me a lesson:
Being a runner isn’t about speed or distance. It’s a mindset.
What’s your silver lining today? I love comments!