Wednesday, January 7, 2015
Run/ Walk/ Bike/ Elliptical (Today: 1.50 miles; Running Total: 114.50 miles)
Day 180 of *Another* 100 Days of Good Karma.
I felt good enough to walk today. I did that 1.5 miles up there on the treadmill. It took me 33 minutes and wore me out, but I did it and felt better for doing so.
Coming out of the chemo fog happens by tiny degrees.
On days like this, when the fog of fatigue and nausea and mental impairment is just beginning to lift and I can almost make out what I’ll feel like on the other side, it’s hard to remember not to force it.
I get frustrated. I hate being slow. I want to push myself harder. As if by making myself run three miles, not walk half that, and at a snail’s pace, too, I can force the fog away.
I try to remember that the fog cannot be forced. It cannot be pushed. It must drift out at its own pace.
I try to ask myself, why push so hard? Isn’t it enough to feel human again? To move, to be active, just because I can?
Today, the answer was yes.
Today’s silver lining: Today, just feeling better was enough.
Today was good. Tomorrow will be better.
What’s your silver lining today? I love comments!
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