Thursday, February 19, 2015
Run/ Walk/ Bike/ Elliptical (Today: 0.00 miles; Running Total: 177.37 miles)
Day 223 of *Another* 100 Days of Good Karma.
I was really tired today. I haven’t slept very well since the drain came out. I thought I would magically get a decent night’s sleep now that I could lay down.
Not so much. Not yet, anyway.
See, there’s a hole in my side where the drain tube came out. It doesn’t hurt but fluid is still leaking out of it. The fluid is like what would collect under the skin if you got a blister. It doesn’t hurt, but feeling fluid leak out of a hole in your side is less than pleasant. Also, I don’t want the fluid to collect because it could still cause an infection.
I never noticed the leaking feeling before because the drain tube was in. Now I do notice it because I just have an open hole in my side that tunnels up to where my right breast used to be. I have to keep the hole bandaged or the fluid will leak all over my clothes.
Suffice it to say, it’s pretty damn gross.
I’m a side sleeper, so that hole creates some logistical problems at night. Which leads me back to being tired today.
I spent all night torn between laying on my left side, my most comfortable sleeping position, and laying on my right side, the least comfortable because of the tissue expander.
It seems like a no-brainer, right? Sleep on your left side, Meghan. DUH.
But if I sleep on my left side then my right (and the hole in my right side) are up in the air. The fluid can’t drain off because of a little nuisance called gravity.
I settled for laying on my back with a pillow under my knees. This put me somewhere between comfortable and uncomfortable but at least I got some sleep.
I know this is a minor problem. Given everything I’ve been through so far, so what if I have to sleep on my back for a while?
That’s what I tell myself anyway. During the day sleeping on my back seems totally manageable. I only wish the same argument would work as well in the middle of the night.
Today’s silver lining: The hole in my side will close eventually. I just have to be patient while it heals.
In the mean time, the fluid is better out than in.
What’s your silver lining today? I love comments!
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